Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Bono & the Big Heat: Drought, Fire, Love and Marriage in the American West

I've been planning to post this poem for sometime, but not necessarily wanting to.  Drought and fire have become the norms of living in the American West.  This year could be 2007 all over.  Once again, we have spent a good chunk of our summer watching fires--both live and on the news.  This is new.  Forest fires were not a regular part of my childhood.  They have and will continue to be part of my children’s.

This is my best poem, which is why I wanted to post it.  But it captures tension in my marriage, which is why I didn’t want to post it.  Marci literally saved my life.  Back in November of 1994 I hit rock bottom for reasons I won’t go into here, reasons I’m not even sure I totally understand, and probably can’t explain.  Anyway, I spent Thanksgiving night 1994 drunk, wandering up and down Mesa Street in El Paso, screaming “I want to die” at the occasional passing car and cursing God for my life.  Somehow I’d become encased in a shell of shyness and couldn’t seem to get out.  I blamed God for my inability to be myself around others, especially women.

I woke up the next morning with this strong impression:  go home.  So, I made plans to move back to Utah after spending 12 crucial teenage and college years away.

Shortly afterward I met Marci, and overall, I’ve been happy ever since.  I have two versions of my life:  one of deep dissatisfaction and anger and one of general satisfaction and deep joy--life before Marci and life after Marci.  She literally rescued me.  But no marriage comes without tension.  This poem records that tension, and that tension is its strength.  However, it’s much easier to share unabashed praises to my wife, and I’ve written many such poems.  Yet, good writing often requires doing the hard thing.  I have no idea if I will ever become known as poet, but if I do, this is one of the poems I want to be known for:


The New West

7/14/07

Cicadas riot outside the window.   Everest on the cot at the foot of our bed sleeps silent.
It is a warm night after an intensely hot day.

Earlier we drove out to investigate the biggest fire in Utah history. 

Over 360,000 acres.  Deep, rutted roads through soft alkali soil.  Neither Lloyd nor I remember these roads this way.  You want us to turn around.  Winding between high brush. 

Finally, first black finger of fire.   The print, really.  Strikingly manicured, smooth as a golf course, black rolling undulations below craggy black basalt cliffs. 

Then a stand of untouched brush and a lone juniper.  “One Tree Hill,” you say  The Joshua Tree.  U2 standing stoic before the shockingly sparse American West, Bono sweating in a white, wife-beater t-shirt.  In different places, that album spoke to us.  The Edge’s fingers clicking the strings like cicadas in the night.  Suddenly searing sounds rip through the atmosphere, bulleting the blue sky.   Bono, a mad preacher, snake charmer, symbol of sex, God, America.  And you give yourself away, and you give… Until, like an Arizona monsoon, the thunderheads rolled on.  Somehow I ended up forty and married. 

At some point we stopped.  Lloyd, the boys, Darth and I hiked up a volcano.  It irritates me that you remain behind.  Love is that way.  I still haven’t found what I’m looking for. 

A spoiled brat I insist you meet me inside myself where it’s impossible.

One hundred and three degrees Fahrenheit.  Heat rises in thick waves off charred grass and heat-polished, volcanic bombs.

The lone, silt covered van sits with you hidden inside, the size of an ant, at the edge of a chalk-white stripe etched across a broad, black valley, two isolated fires still smoldering in the distance.

One wide, like a dust storm.
The other narrow as the funnel of a small tornado.

I can’t live without you.



7/22/07

Sunday, the day of rest. 

I nearly nap on the living room floor after church, dinner and a late afternoon thunder storm.

Cool evening.

I sit at a round table under the swaying colored lights of the patio of the Blue Door Bar,

which we made together, for me,
in memory

of wilder nights and days blurred like smoky dusk following a fire. 

Margarita glasses now filled with milkshakes.

Our boys sit at the black-tiled bar under blinking martini light playing cards with Elvis on the back. 

Lennon is on the t-shirt on the wall in his guerilla suit.

Crickets chirp.

I walk up the lane to visit Mom. 

Deep smell of cool wet woods. 

Afterwards, I grab a flashlight and walk down in the canyon loud with life.  Cicada, cricket.  The night breathes after a short, intense rain.

Tomorrow there will be heat, dust, struggle against drought again.

7/27/07

Cool shade of cottonwood,
Chalk Creek churning,
over worn stone, singing
the same song over thousands of years.

Sunlight on boulders the size of over-stuffed chairs down to the size of ladies purses.

Deep reds,
pale blues,
rounded by the roll of ages.

Turbulent creek-beds during spring run-off.

What if global warming ends the snow-pack,
ends the annual rock toss downstream?

No more high waters cutting into banks,
bringing down trees, piling up crud?
No more silt and shit
beautifully backed up behind log jamb
to fill in with meadow
and cottonwood
and birds singing?

What if the seasons of the west end
and the song of the crashing creeks
goes silent?

What then will be our song?—

You and I colliding
--Indian Mormon and White Agnostic Mormon—

Begetting children here
among these rattlesnakes and song birds?

Will our family go on here
after Dry Creek cuts
through our land dry forever?

© Steve Brown, 2012


Extra:  Click here for Video of U2:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Ye8GLPUVsM


Saturday, July 14, 2012

Charlie Gomez Staggers Over to Bill Sims: John Lennon, Rosa Parks, Caesar Chavez, Mahatma Gandhi, Mormonism, and Standing Up Against Prejudice--Sort of

Earlier today, a friend posted some anti-Mormon propaganda on facebook.  Then one of my peers in my MFA Writing program posted a news story about Mormons, and although it was mostly accurate, her comments were not.  As I respect both these individuals, I simply corrected misconceptions, and I thought “that is that.”
                Then, while packing for our permanent move to Dry Creek, I came across an old poem of mine:
Charlie Gomez Staggers Over to Bill Sims
                                                                Ever kiss a Mexican farm worker?
                                                                                No.  Don’t believe I have.
                                                                Pucker up fat gringo.

                And I realized that although I’m male, white and working on becoming fat, like Bill Sims, right now I’m actually more like Charlie Gomez because I really want to post, “Ever kiss a Mormon?  Well, pucker up, bigot.”
                I never know how to appropriately respond to prejudice because it’s almost always perpetrated by good people, and yet left unchecked, it’s dangerous.  I’m also aware I’m probably Bill Sims as often as I’m Charlie Gomez, so I don’t feel like getting on my high horse.  However, I came across another old poem of mine that might help me reply in some way--though I’m not sure how yet.  It’s long, so I’ll copy part of the poem, try to figure out how it pertains, then copy some more.  Hopefully, by the end both the reader and I will be enlightened.  I’m writing on a hunch here:
Jed Tells a Woman from Niagara Falls How to Get to State Highway 257
                You just go down a mile and turn left
at a deep black thick muddy road,
squishy and there’s some wagon wheel tracks--
no, not wagon wheel tracks,
just some 4-wheel drive tracks
in this deep black muddy road.
It’s called Henderson Road.
It’s deep-black-muddy
and heads towards nothing
but a big, long, hump-back blue ridge.
You’re not sure if it turns around it
to go around it,
or if it dead ends
at Skull in the Rock.

Maybe the mind is the “deep black thick muddy road.”  That may be a bit of a stretch, but let’s go with it, just in case it works.  We constantly perceive, often without any frame of reference, from the time we are infants, and these images, these sounds, smells, impressions--well, they lay down tracks, but overtime they become indistinguishable and unchecked, go nowhere.  Perhaps.

And anyway, on Henderson Lane,
to the left--
yes, to the left--
there’s some picket fence--
no, not just some picket fence--a bob-wire fence
and these old cedar-like post,
but they’re not cedar, cause a--
well, they’re just not.

Here, to me, the poem clearly becomes a metaphor for the mind.  But not just any mind.  An uncertain, intuitive, rather than a knowing, logical mind, like when Lennon writes--

No one I think is in my tree, I mean it must be high or low.
That is you can't you know tune in but it's all right, that is I think it's not too bad--*

And behind it all
is a muddy field,
a thick, muddy field,
with alkali on the surface.
and so the mud is deep and black
with white scum on top.

Our thoughts are not solid, not clear, there is no surface.  What appears to be concrete is really just a thin, crusty layer.  Underneath everything oozes.

And in the field is a steamin well,
a sulfer spring, yep,
a sulfer spring.
and the steam comes up,
and it’s hot, steamy and stinky,
this rotten egg smell,
just some real organic crud going on.

Clearly the unconscious.  Perhaps prejudice that seeped in long ago and is now bubbling to the surface. 

And the cows just stand around and stare into the steam
with these dazed, dull, stupid eyes.
And they never move,
or hardly ever move,
the big, stupid Hereford cows
with the dull brown stupid-looking eyes,
fat and bloated, starin across the steam,
looking blankly at each other
like friends at a funeral.

 Clearly you.  But also clearly me.  We are the big, stupid Hereford cows in the eyes of the oppressed.  That’s how you view the world when you are mistreated.  During my ninth grade year, we moved from Utah to Richardson, Texas, and I was too innocent not to share my religion with others.  As a result I was persecuted by other innocent, but extremely ignorant students, most practicing “Christians.”  That’s not a judgment, just a fact.  A year earlier, I’d persecuted an openly atheist student in Utah along with my peers, so I’m no better.

Still, as I wandered those halls in my silent protective shell, I saw cows--lots of them.  I think that verse is worth repeating.  This is how the oppressed view their oppressors:

And the cows just stand around and stare into the steam
with these dazed, dull, stupid eyes.
And they never move,
or hardly ever move,
the big, stupid Hereford cows
with the dull brown stupid-looking eyes,
fat and bloated, starin across the steam,
looking blankly at each other
like friends at a funeral.

Mob mentality.  Dumb.  The poem goes on much the same, but I won’t continue as it has some language in it that I won’t use now because of my religion.  Still, it’s impossible to leave out one part:

                So across the street

Is a corn field.
It’s just slowly slopin, slidin, oozin
brown field of corn
that’s been out in the sun, oh at least thirty summers,
rained on, just a stinkin, steamin compost heap
of earwigs, potato bugs and slugs.
The whole field’s just oozin, oozin
toward the river like a glacier

That’s where Charlie Gomez finally staggers over to Bill Sims:  Ever kiss a Mexican farm worker?  But only a few of the oppressed have that in them--the rare, vital Rosa Parks, Caesar Chavez, Harvey Milk and Mahatma Gandhi.   For the rest of the overweight, underweight, feminine, wrong religion, unattractive, shy…

no, it’s not like a glacier.
A glacier is a firm statement,
a solid thing,
an energy that says,
Get the F*** out of my way!

And this field doesn’t have that.
It’s just a slopin away,
a slidin into nothin.


Obviously, my own interpretation of my poem is forced.  Poetry occurs on an unconscious, not conscious level.  If you can paraphrase a poem, it really isn’t a poem.  But I do know after years of prejudice, after rejecting my religion, I became that sloshy field and I was "slidin away into nothing."  Then, somehow, like Charlie, I found my glacier-energy.  It was a hymn, a Mormon hymn, almost forgotten, a hymn that reminded me I Am:

Come, come ye saints
No toil nor labor fear
But with joy, wend your way
Though hard to you,
This journey may appear,
Grace shall be as your day,
Tis better far for us to strive
Our useless cares from us to drive
Do this and joy, your hearts will swell
All is well! All is well!

Why should we mourn?
Or think our lot is hard?
Tis not so, all is bright
Why should we think to earn a great reward?
If we now shun the fight
Gird up your loins
Fresh courage take
Our god will never us forsake
And soon we'll have this tale to tell
All is well! All is well!

We'll find the place
Which God for us prepared
Far away, in the West
Where none shall come
To hurt or make afraid
There the saints, will be blessed
We'll make the air, with music ring,
Shout praises to, our god and king,
Above the rest these words we'll tell
All is well! All is well!

Any large religion at times takes stands on political issues based on their core religious beliefs.  I think both the public and its members not only have the right, but an obligation, to react according to their conscience.  But it is one thing to challenge an issue, which is intellect, and quite another thing to use that issue as an open-door to express hate and then substantiate that hate with inaccurate propaganda.  That’s called prejudice. 
© Steve Brown, 2012

















Friday, July 13, 2012

Sustainable Living Advice from Gary Snyder: Find Whatever Moves You to the Core; Move Never More

Lloyd, Rio, and Marci on the hike up Paradise Canyon Trail--part of our realm.

Phil visits our realm.
Moss Falls, the destination for this particular day.

As I’ve said before, my idea of Sustainable Living is not simply an environmental act.  Although living lightly (leaving the smallest carbon foot-print possible and being water conscious) is vital to our survival, the reality is, it’s often easier to help the planet ecologically by living in a high rise a couple blocks from the office than by buying land in Nebraska, Wyoming or Utah and deciding to live off the land.  For one thing, because of the scant population, human resources and services are scarce in rural areas.  Jobs are few and far between and there is no public transportation.  Some places are so remote buying a loaf of bread requires a road trip.
Marci walks a gravel road across a desert lake--part of the great expanse that is our realm.
For example, when I lived on the Navajo Nation, the nearest grocery store was 30 minutes away.  The nearest town with clothing, hardware and a movie theater--Gallup--was an hour and a half.  We did our best to cut down on fuel consumption by only going to town twice a month, but in order to comfortably make that trip with four kids, we purchased a full-sized van so that the boys wouldn’t have to ride back with bags of groceries on their laps.  In the rural west, it’s not uncommon to drive an hour and a half for a good steak and a movie afterwards, an absurd idea for urbanites, and clearly not good for the planet, but sometimes a psychological necessity, especially in the dead of winter.  That is why places like Denio, Nevada exist--dots on the vast uninhabited expanse--to provide coffee, a good steak and baked potato, and most important of all, human contact beyond spouse and children to the last frontiersmen.
The county in which Dry Creek is located in (which I’ll always leave unnamed so that I don’t accidently commit the same atrocity that Edward Abbey inadvertently committed against Moab), is an expanse of 6,828 square miles with a population of 12,420,  If you do the math, that’s an average density of 1.5 people per square mile.  There is lots of elbow room, but minimal services and career opportunities.  In fact, until Dry Creek is truly sustainable, I may have to commute an hour or more each day to work.  I’m a teacher and there are only three high schools serving that great expanse, half a dozen total within an hour’s drive.  Teaching positions seldom open up, and when they do, an administrator’s relative, who has been trying to return home for years, is usually the first applicant.  I don’t resent that; these communities are built on deep family ties.   But to claim that I’ll be assisting the planet ecologically by moving to Dry Creek is absurd--at least to begin with.
Remnants of ancient Lake Bonniville: Part of the 239 square miles or 3.50%  of the mostly arid 6,828 square mile county.  During the last ice age, western Utah was covered by an enormous inland lake.

But the ecosystem is not the only diseased system in the United States.  In most of the places I’ve lived since leaving home, I haven’t even known my neighbors.  Humanity in the United States is becoming a desert where roots are shallow and people tumble along the sands of dreams, blowing from one sink hole to another sink hole, searching for fertile soil, desperately looking for land where family can take root, but it never does, because we are career-driven rather than life-driven.  We go wherever our careers take us.  That is a monumental cultural change and I believe a spiritually devastating one.  People use to work in order to live; now people live in order to work.  The office has replaced the family as the center.  This cannot be good.
This, I believe, is what truly drives the sustainable living movement--a hunger for earth, for people, for place.  In Gardening at the Dragon’s Gate, Wendy Johnson includes a quotation by Gary Snyder that captures this simple, radical philosophy so vital for our times:
Don’t move.  Stay still.  Once you find a place that feels halfway right, and it seems time, settle down with a vow not to move anymore.  Take a look at one place on earth, one circle of beings, one realm of beings over time.
It will require sacrifice.  Losing a job might require taking a pay cut and/or a job with less social status in order to stay put.  It may require that the philosopher take up the socket wrench, the poet flip burgers, the anarchist mow the lawn and trim hedges at the cemetery.   But deep roots make it worth it.  I know it.  As a kid, I knew it.  All I ever wanted to do was float pop cans down the creek, run along the bank, catch them at the bridge, and run back again.  Does anyone ever really need more than this?  Not me.  When I initially left my home to "become something" I slowly grew ill and didn’t even know why.  And because I was ill, I couldn’t become what I’d set out to become anyway.  And if I had, nothing would have changed, as my spiritual center would still be along some creek watching a pop can ride the small rapids under the dappled shade.
Perhaps your center is a certain smell:  the dry pines of northern California in the summertime; the smell of coffee and bread from the corner bakery; maybe the ready-to-ignite air of Texas City on Galveston Bay.   Or perhaps your center is a sound: the peeling of church bells echoing through the concrete canyons as shadows are cast long and a stream of taillights heads for the suburbs; the rattle of tracks of the elevated outside the apartment window; the long, low moan of the foghorn or the hum of that great suburban serenador, the lawn mower.  Whatever it is that moves you to the core--find it and move never more.   For you will never feel quit right without that small something that rationally has no great impact on the world but to you is the universe.  That for me is Dry Creek.  Everything.  I simply do not fully exist elsewhere.
The garden at Dry Creek--the center of our realm.





© Steve Brown, 2012

Thursday, June 21, 2012

That's the Way, Uh-huh Uh-huh, I Like It: Second-Hand Memories of the USS Midway’s Rescue of 3,000 Vietnamese Political Refugees


As children we take in all kinds of information, but because of our limited experience, we have no file system to store it in, no names or historical context to file it under.  Yet, the sounds, the smells, the images--they still are stored, just not in an orderly way.  Writers access some of those floating images through free-writing--allowing childhood memories to bubble up black and oily to mingle with the clearer waters of the adult mind until joined together something namable takes shape.  I don’t know what the rest of the population does.   Maybe the unnamable parts of childhood--that gray area you’re not sure was reality or a dream-- are simply forgotten.  Or maybe chance slowly sends a ray of sunlight through the key hole and ignites one hidden jewel at a time, happenstance after happenstance, until a story develops whether you write it down or not.
I had such an experience recently.  Three of my boys--Tyler, Rio and Everest--and I were on a scout trip in California and we spent one night aboard the decommissioned aircraft carrier USS Midway in San Diego.

Rio sits at the controls--not sure what to do.
Tyler writes important numbers--not sure what they all mean.
Everest takes the wheel--not sure where to go.

Right before leaving the next morning, the crew (many of who served on the Midway) shared stories during a presentation they called “Midway Magic.”
As they started into the final story, memories which I’d stored long ago were pried loose by the sharp blade of context.
However, before I tell the story--how they all came together--I want to share some images.
We’re watching a fuzzy black and white TV.  In my mind, we’re in my brother and sister’s bedroom in the apartment in Salt Lake City and the lights are out (the only way we could see the fading TV) I’m lying down on the trunk where I often slept.  But this can’t be right, for the story shared aboard the USS Midway happened in 1975, and we no longer lived in Salt Lake.
So, it had to be our next black and white TV--a new one, fuzzy not because of the set, but because our rural community, Fillmore, had incredibly poor television reception.
But the images are clear--a large ship deck.  Soldiers shove helicopters overboard.  They crash into the sea.  In my mind’s eye, skies are dark, water turbulent, soldiers frantic.  Terrifyingly chaotic music.  But I have no idea if this is accurate.  I only know--or think I know--that I saw soldiers push helicopter after helicopter off the flight deck.  Even though I would have been nine at the time, I guess I didn’t have enough political context to file the images well.  So, they seeped into the groundwater, black and sticky. 
Flight deck of USS Midway

In the next image I stare out the front door of the classroom that was in the double-wide that served as the 4th grade at the old Fillmore Elementary.  It’s hot, the ceiling fan whirls, I look at Lan and she looks at me.  I’ve loved her since midway through the third grade when the mushroom farm built a trailer park and brought fifteen or twenty trailers and filled them with families from Vietnam, Laos and Cambodia.  I love her long black hair, her soft black eyes, her tomboy attitude, the way she always wears a bright colored silk disco shirt over a white tank-top and leaves it unbuttoned.  I love when she’s running on the playground and the wind catches her shirt and blows it slightly off her shoulder.  I love how she sings, “that's the way, uh-huh uh-huh, I like it, uh-huh, uh-huh” every chance she gets, even though it’s usually to my best friend, Richard.  I love her even though she gave me a black eye after I got in a fight with her little sister when I was in third grade.  I love her even though she spent the next day telling the entire school about it, holding her fist up in a tight knot and laughing, “I, number one; you number 10.”
Back in fourth grade, in that hot room, the fan twirling, I do something I think will amuse her (I don’t remember what) and her face breaks into a big smile that gives me the willies.  As an adult I’ve seen that smile on a couple of women and now know it is a smile of love--eyes that look deep down into your soul while the lips pull into a sly, mischievous, omniscient I’ve-got-something-on-you look.  But back then I had no context for it.  It was foreign, loaded.  I felt like I’d vomit.
Now, to the story--finally:   On April 29, 1975 the USS Midway, as part of the Seventh Fleet forces, carried out Operation Frequent Wind as South Vietnam fell.  The Midway flew “in excess of 40 sorties, shuttling 3,073 personnel and Vietnamese refugees out of Saigon in two days” (USS Midway History, http://www.midwaysailor.com/midway/history.html).
I remember hearing the awful whoop-whoop of the blades, seeing the frantic crowds at the embassy gates, watching tears stream down faces as loved ones let go of other loved ones.  Was it the same sorties headed for the Midway or different ones?  Am I mingling in images from The Killing Fields?   Did Lan’s family escape then or a year or so later?  It doesn’t matter.  She was there.  The same circumstance--a political refugee.  And I didn’t even know it.  We played kissing tag while she had images of gunfire, bombs and blood in her head.  How many loved ones did she leave behind?  How did this new, strange language feel on the end her tongue?  (“You number 10,” which I hated to hear or “You number one,” which sent my heart fluttering). And what did I say that hot day that could have opened her heart fully to me for the first time?  How was it different from my many other attempts to gain her attention? 
Flight Deck, Helicopter and San Diego

Now, to the next part of the story:  As the Midway was already at capacity with its crew and aircraft, the hanger deck had to be cleared of aircraft to establish a refugee camp coined “Hotel Midway.”  As a result, the only place to put the aircraft was on the flight deck, which was already overcrowded because of the excess helicopters from Saigon.   But the crew was determined.
Then, just when things were right for the first time, a small South Vietnamese Cessna Bird Dog, appeared in the sky.  At first the crew thought it might be attacking.  But instead of dropping bombs, it dropped three notes.  One landed on deck.  It was Major Bung Lee of the south Vietnamese Air Force.  The note asked permission to land.  Two major problems:  First,  the deck was full.  Next, aircraft carriers are too short for normal landings.  Carrier planes are specially equipped with a large hook that grabs great cables to slow them down--no hook, no cable, no landing. 
Cut to memory: helicopters are shoved into the ocean.  I now have the context.  Under the direction of their commander, crew push helicopter after helicopter into the ocean to save the life of one man.  I’m not proud of much of what our military does, but even I want to salute here. 
Boy Scout Tomas Hunt fills in nicely as the Captain.

Then Major Lee did the impossible--he landed safely.  Perhaps God was involved as General Lee also had his wife and five children crammed into the cockpit with him, his youngest child 14 months old and, his eldest six years (Refugees 'come home' to the Midway after 35 years, http://www.ocregister.com/news/midway-246797-lee-chambers.htm).

As I stood in the hanger, listening to the story, in my mind’s eye it filled up with refugees and I almost thought I saw Lan, one of the 100 refugees who enriched my childhood and hometown from 1976 to the mid 80s.  Wherever she is, I hope she has a husband man enough to handle her intense, love-packed smile.  I also hope the bombs, the blood, terror and tears have lost their weight and flutter in the breeze like her silk disco shirts.
Oh, that's the way, uh-huh uh-huh,
I like it, uh-huh, uh-huh

© Steve Brown, 2012
P.S.:  Good video of Operation Frequent Wind featuring music by ELO.  Click below.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mcQoQDkhbYw&feature=share

Monday, June 18, 2012

No Mirror: Native American Story Structure in Sherman Alexie’s “The Lone Ranger and Tonto Fistfight in Heaven”


As I need some time to flush out some current post I'm working on, I thought this would be a good time to share an essay I wrote last summer about Alexie's story, "The Lone Ranger and Tonto Fistfight in Heaven.”  What I'd really appreciate is feedback, especially by Natives.  Please post your thoughts and experiences, whether you agree with my observations or not.
In a recent class in my MFA program, I was assigned to write an essay on Sherman Alexie’s “The Lone Ranger and Tonto Fistfight in Heaven,” and decided to write off the following question developed by my professor:
Some critics would refer to Alexie's and other contemporary writers' fiction as "committed" fiction--that is, fiction with a clear political point of view and set of political arguments, often satirical. Committed fiction, they argue, makes its political arguments organic to the narratives they tell but they are not "didactic"--that is, intended to teach as moral instruction in a patronizing way. Is Alexie's story didactic or "committed"? What implicit political arguments is the narrator making? How are they organic to the narrative? Or are they simply heavy-handed?
I say “write off,” because, based on the information given in the prompt, I’m not sure either term quite works, and so I’ll have to modify the prompt, as I use it.  At first glance, it seems “Committed” would probably work:   any politics in this story are “organic to the narrative” and are not meant to “teach…moral instruction in a patronizing way.”   And yet, the term and its definition feel wrong to me.  To explain my reaction, I must first explain that I’m married into a Navajo family and have lived and taught on the Navajo Nation for eight years.  (As I write this, my wife’s family is sponsoring a family reunion.  However, if I let them know my intentions, they’ll say, “Always the bilagaana (white-man) trying to steal our culture; always the bilagaana trying to teach something.”  They’ll be joking and deadly serious at the same time and there will be no way to separate the joke from the non-joke, because in Navajo culture the joke and non-joke are fused—the sarcasm is there, but it is not meant to sting or change anything, it just is.)   Navajo obviously is a complete separate culture and language than Alexie’s, an oversight often made by whites, who treat Native Americans as if they came from one single, united culture, even though each tribe has its own language and religious beliefs, many of which clash.  However, there is a common Native culture and humor that is shared among the tribes, which is either intrinsic to all Native Americans, or has developed through the long history of white-imposed Indian Schools and the more recent inter-tribal Powwow circuit.  It is, I believe, this larger contemporary Native American culture Alexie is writing about, and this larger Native American audience Alexie is writing to, not Anglo-Americans.   It is a mistake to believe this story was tailored for our sensibilities in any way.
Which is why, ultimately, as useful as the prompt is, it fails.  As I will show, it imposes Anglo-American thinking on a Native American narrative structure.  It assumes an Anglo-American purpose for story telling, which Native Americans do not share.  Anglos, as I’m doing here, write primarily to persuade.  Rhetoric is just a part of who we are.  To make a point, to be slightly combative, to outwit, outsmart, debate, is just who we are, and we assume that is universally true of all cultures, and it’s not.  From what I’ve observed, “out-smarting” is definitely part of Navajo culture, but it’s in jest, and unlike in white-culture, it is not the primary purpose of language.  We use language to try to change the world to how we want it; Native Americans use language to share the world as it already exists.  There is no political agenda.  The point of the story is the story itself, as evidenced by an interview with the Acoma Indian poet, Simon J. Ortiz:
Why do you write?  Who do you write for?
Because Indians always tell a story.  The only way to continue is to tell a story and that’s what Coyote says.  The only way to continue is to tell a story and there is no other way.  Your children will not survive unless you tell something about them—how they were born, how they came to this certain place, how they continued.
Who do you write for besides yourself?
For my children, for my wife, for my mother and my father and my grandparents and then reverse order that way so that I may have a good journey on my way back home.
                This short excerpt models Native American thinking and communication in several important ways.  First, it uses repetition, by fours, as its primary structure.  First Ortiz says he writes, “to tell a story.”  Then he says, “the only way to continue is to tell a story and that’s what Coyote says.”   Next he says “the only way to continue is to tell a story and there is no other way.”  Finally, he says, “Your children will not survive unless you tell something about them—how they were born, how they came to this certain place, how they continued.”  He repeats, and then adds, deepening the meaning, each time he repeats, until the fourth time, when the “ah-ha” moment is allowed to shine through in all its glory.  It’s significant that this comes from an interview.  Ortiz did not compose it this way for an effect; it’s just how he organically thinks and communicates.  Native American students in public schools, and I presume college as well, often have their writing marked down for being redundant because Anglo-writing is thesis-driven, whereas Native American communication is experience-driven.  In white society, you state your theses, and then back it up with evidence.  In Native American societies, you share your experience and discover the truth through the narrative journey.   An Indian will not tell you what you need to know; they will only share with you what they learned along the way, which completely obliterates political discourse as we understand it.  Politics at the Chapter House do not proceed as they do in Washington, even if the outcomes are similar.
                This is the same basic narrative structure for Alexie’s “The Lone Ranger and Tonto Fistfight in Heaven.”  Because I’m Anglo, after I finished the story, I initially thought, “Where was the fistfight?,” which of the characters are the Lone Ranger? (Tonto was obvious enough even for me), and “Where is heaven in the story?”  The title seemed random, and the events seemed unrelated:  1) a mock confrontation with a white 7-11 clerk; 2) a break-up with a white girlfriend, 3) a basketball game with the white son of the Bureau of Indian Affairs chief; and 4) looking for a job in the white-man’s world.
            But, the title is not random—it is the essential experience the story shares: how “The Lone Ranger” (whites) and Tonto (the narrator) battle it out.  However, there is another important part of the title, which is “Heaven.”  As there is absolutely no reference to an after-life in the story, and all the details are clearly of this world—7-11, driving around Seattle to avoid his girlfriend, playing basketball, looking through want-ads—one can only assume “heaven” is this life.
            That was my experience living on the Rez.  I was treated as the enemy, but a friendly enemy, like an opponent in a game of Rez-ball, which is both serious and not serious at the same time.   There was a keen awareness of what my people had done to the Navajo people, a distrust that anything had fundamentally changed (in other words, my being there and teaching their children was still eroding the traditional culture as the presence of whites always has done), but a bond still existed, in the bigger bother-hood of life, that was larger than the tribal warfare between whites and Navajos.  Native Americans, unlike whites, have no need to hate their enemies, nor convert them.   Tease them, yes.  Laugh at them, yes.  But hate, or wish to alter their basic nature, no.  And, whether we like it or not, no need to forgive us either, because, first what we’ve done is so profoundly awful it is beyond forgiveness, and second, as Native Americans are culturally inward looking, rather than outward looking, we are not important enough to forgive.  We are not “the people.”  Native Americans believe they continued just fine before us, fine with us, and will continue just fine without us, if that day shall ever come.    
            My initial trouble at fully understanding the text arose from the fact that despite being married into a Navajo family, despite having lived and taught on the Navajo reservation for eight years, I am still primarily a white-thinker.  After reading Ortiz again, thinking about story telling in my classroom, thinking about story telling in my wife’s family, it became obvious.  This story is not about seemingly unrelated events--a mock confrontation with a white 7-11 clerk, a break-up with a white girlfriend, a basketball game with the white son of the Bureau of Indian Affairs chief, or about looking for a job in the white-man’s world—all used as details to frame a larger story about more global historical issues.  It’s not political at all.
            This brings us to the second important point about Native American narrative structure as evidenced in the Ortiz quote:  Your children will not survive unless you tell something about them—how they were born, how they came to this certain place, how they continued.  Native American narrative overall is designed for the good of the tribe, the clan, the family, not some external audience.  As a white, you are more than welcome to sit in the circle and listen to the story being told, but the story telling is not for you, it is for the Natives.  Alexie’s “The Lone Ranger and Tonto Fistfight in Heaven” is not written for us; even though we are free to enjoy it—it is written for Alexie’s people and other Native Americans who share a united experience and immediately get how the title and the four retellings of what it is like to be an Indian in white society are all different versions of the same experience.  It is meant as bitter humor—ain’t that just how it feels bro, when you’re in a 7-ll late at night, and it’s just assumed you’re there to steal?   This is not explaining, this is not converting, this is not making political statements.  It’s shit, this is how it feels, ain’t it?  And then big, rolling laughter after because it hurts too damn much to cry.  No fault.  No demon.  Just is.
 The only way to continue is to tell a story and that’s what Coyote says:  this is what it was like when Kit Carson and his Calvary rode through the Chinle Valley and burned our crops and homes, and chased your great- grandparents up into Canyon de Chelly and the only reason you’re here alive is because your grandmother as a baby was taken and hidden in a juniper tree and somehow survived a couple of days without food or water until her parents could come back to get her.     The only way to continue is to tell a story and there is no other way.  And this is what it’s like to go to boarding school and not be able to see your family or speak your language or eat your food or practice your religion.  Your children will not survive unless you tell something about them.  This is what it’s like to be “Too hot to sleep”  and “walk to the Third Avenue 7-11 for a Creamsicle and the company of a graveyard-shift cashier” (Alexie, 15) in a city that is built on your land but is built in the image of your enemy—to be alive in a country that attempted to annihilate your people and now wants forgiveness;  this is how [you] were born, how [you] came to this certain place, how [you]  continued:
  “Disembodied, I could never see everything that was happening.  Whites killing Indians and Indians killing whites…Three mounted soldiers played polo with a dead Indian woman’s head… Even more terrifying, though, is the fact those kinds of things are happening today in places like El Salvador” (17).
The story isn’t political because there is not enough evidence to credibly believe things will ever change between cultures who dominate and cultures who are dominated.    Instead, the story is a manual on how to survive, written for much the same reasons Ortiz writes:
For my children, for my wife, for my mother and my father and my grandparents and then reverse order that way so that I may have a good journey on my way back home.
If the story is political in any way, it is political this way.  It is sovereign: independent of our usual rhetorical structures, independent of our usual purposes in writing, independent of Anglos as an audience, only sharing what is universal—anger, hurt, love, getting on with life—because there is no way not to share those universal feelings when telling a good story.  In short, it is political in that it refuses to mirror Anglo society.    And that does change us, because it forces us to accept that the way we mentally organize the world is not the only way.   We have to let go of our expectations, our politics, and enter the story on its own native terms or sit around the peripheral only half getting the humor, which is what I spend much of my life doing.  But that too is a good journey. 
It is significant that Alexie closes with these parallel journeys.  The narrator and his girl friend can both say sorry, but she, very Anglo, ends by saying, “I want to change the world” (19).
The narrator, in contrast, closes by saying:
I wish I lived closer to the river, to the falls where the ghosts of salmon jump.  I wish I could sleep.  I put down my paper or book and turn off al the lights, lie quietly in the dark.  It may take hours, even years, for me to sleep again.  There’s nothing surprising or disappointing in that.
I know how all my dreams end anyway. (19)
 For her, there is still the possibility of a better world, that distant horizon, that brighter tomorrow, that final frontier, that constant movement that keeps her from the present.
For him, there are only the ghosts of some better yesteryear and the heaven of now (with or without sleep).  There is only the past and the is.   The future does not exist, except as another is moment, because experience has taught him dreams “end anyway.”  Surviving, carrying on, is moment by moment, story by story, survival.
 © Steve Brown, 2012